Paper Doll

Ya know, its rare that my husband and I fight. Don't get me wrong, we quarrel, but we don't have out & out fights often. Today was that rare special day, and all over . . . clothing. You read right-- clothing.

My husband is a venturer. He loves change and spontaneity. I, however, am a creature of habit. He has gotten me out of my shell, and I have tried many different things, especially when it comes to what I wear. There are many things that, for him, I'll try at least once, but there are some things that I just won't wear. Overalls for instance. He'd love me to wear them. . . not gonna happen. Thongs & Leggings-- only in the bedroom. Today his choice was a jacket-like thing. I guess one would call it an over-shirt? I don't know. It has long sleeves, goes over a t-shirt and basically covers only the boobs. Its kinda hard to explain, but I'm sure if you saw one you'd know what I'm talking about. Anyhoo, I told him that I wouldn't wear that, and that is fucking ugly. He got offended. Hell, he got pissed off. I don't think I've ever seen him that pissed off, and it was all over clothing. . .CLOTHING!!! Can you believe it? Just because I decided that something was fucking butt-ugly and I wouldn't wear it he gets POd. I compromised and said I'd wear it for him in bed. . . but no, not good enough. This thing is such hideous fashion that I'm sure Stacey of What Not to Wear wouldn't touch it.

Either way, I just can't understand how he can be so upset about what *I* wear. Its not his freakin' body! Why should he be upset because he's not able to cloth it in the clothes he wants?!

I understand that he loves change and loves to try new/different things, so it doesn't bother me when he says, "Oh, baby, you'd look good in this" or "Hey, why don't you try this" or hell, even "I saw this girl & she had this outfit that I thought you'd look hot in." I get that he'd like me to try different things, but when he gets offended because I won't try it, it puzzles me. I don't get offended when he won't wear something I think he'd look good in. If its not his style, then its not his style. It kinda sucks, but no biggie.

Sometimes he pushes me to try new things, and I hate that. I wish he'd just understand that sometimes I just won't budge. Its nothing personal, there are just somethings I won't do. When he gets like this it makes me wonder if he's trying to change me. I like me. . . a lot. I know that I need to change somethings, and for the most part, I'm open. I may not do it but I'll listen, and hell, sometimes I wind up doing it in my own time anyways. One thing I don't like is being forced. I am who I am, and I'm not gonna change for anyone but myself-- & yes this includes changing my wardrobe. I don't necessarily like how I dress, but I will change it my own way, & in my own time. Give me suggestions, but don't force into something just because you like it. . .I'm not your fucking paper doll.